As alwys we gathered with drumming and singing, sharing and renewing relationships, welcoming anyone new to Turtle Clan Circle.As we passed the talking stick we reflected:
Wisdom Lessons learned from the North Gate – each person shared something:
*Go with the flow – don’t’ push the river.
*Remember today could be the ‘last day’ of someone you are interacting with or someone you haven’t seen recently.
*Trusting and letting go! (Sometimes, often it doesn’t happen the way I want it to or expected.) Then just need to let go again!
*Creator has something in store for me soon; something wonderful. It is easy, it will flow and in the unfolding is a magical experience.
*Being more OK with just being ME! It’s ok for me not to be the super __, __,__. Me is a good thing and I am blessed.
*I’m learning how to create true unconditional love for humans, tolerance and “expectations”. When expectations are gone then I can live in the moment and that is where not only life happens but the magic is found; where the flow is strong and steady.
Your Life Line
Supplies: 3 pieces of paper, tape, colored pens and markers, yard stick or ruler.
1. Take 3 sheets of typing paper and connect them end to end – the long way.
2. Draw a line in the middle from one end to the other end
3. Label each page at the top with the year – 2005 2006 2007
4. Mark along the line of each page, making some mark that breaks each year into four seasons: Winter (North Gate), Spring (East Gate), Summer (South Gate), Autumn (West Gate).
Start by marking off major holidays, birthdays, deaths, marriages, moving homes, new jobs, new people joining family, those leaving. Special times (like vacations or anything that pops into your mind as a memorable special time). Chart where you were physically (health issues and overall health) including self care on all levels, emotionally, mentally (which includes your financial ups and downs), spiritual connections or when you felt lost along the path. Especially look to your emotional healthy, crisis and triumphs. Watch for patterns to start showing up. Where do the tests come from, how did you handle it? Where are you in re-act or healthy action, whatever that might be? What are you drawing into your life? Take your time with this as it will really reveal a pattern for the last three years.
Now is the time of truth for you…. Take a good look. Do you want this next year to be the same as the last three? Do you want different outcomes, goals, friends, relationships, emotional and financial health, etc? If you want more of the same, do nothing, you know how to create where you are right now and you’ve been practicing that.
However if you want to chart a new course, make a commitment to yourself and go for it!
We took tag board about 2’ x 3’ and drew a circle in the middle, marked the medicine wheel (although you don’t have to do it this way). Then took the day going through magazines, working with our journals and cutting/pasting and creating a strong visual of the year we are to manifest. It was powerful work and everyone was surprised at their life line and what they learned about themselves.
Post this motivational chart of your year to come where you will see it often. Do your personal work to plan for the changes that you are willing to make and go for it … your life is in your hands. What you think and believe YOU will create.
PLEASE HEAR ME
Don't be fooled by me. Don't be fooled by the face I wear, for I wear a mask. I wear a thousand masks, Masks that I am afraid to take off and none of them is me.Pretending is an art that's second nature with me; But don't be fooled, for God's sake don't be fooled!I give you the impression that I'm secure, That all is sunny & unruffled in me, Within as well as without, That confidence is my name and coolness my game,That the water's calm, I'm in command, And that I need no one. But don't believe me.
My surface may seem smooth,but my surface is my mask,My ever-varying andever-concealing mask.Beneath lies no smugness,no complacence.
Beneath dwells the real me, in confusion, in fear, in aloneness. But I hide this. I panic at the thought of my weaknessand fear being exposed. That is why I frantically create a mask to hide behind. A nonchalant, sophisticated facade, to help me pretend, To shield me fromthe glance that knows.
But such a glanceis precisely my salvation. That is, if it's followed by acceptance, If it is followed by love, It's the only thing that canliberate me from myself. From my own self-built prison walls, From the barriers that I so painstakingly erect. It is the only thing that will assure me of what I can't assure myself: That I'm really worth something... But I don't tell you this, I don't dare.. I'm afraid to.
I'm afraid your glance will not be followedby acceptance and love. I'm afraid you'll think less of me, that you'll laugh...And your laugh will kill me. I'm afraid that deep down I'm nothing,that I'm just no good, And that you will see this and reject me. So I play my game, my desperate pretending game, And my life becomes a front.
I dislike the superficial game I'm playing, The superficial, phony game. I'd really like to be genuine and spontaneous, and me. But you've got to help me. You've got to hold out your hand... Even when that's the last thing I seem to want or need. Only you can wipe away from my eyes the blank stare of the breathing dead... Only you can call me into aliveness.
Each time you are kind and gentle, and encouraging, Each time you try to understand because you really care. My heart begins to grow wings...Very small wings, very feeble wings, but wings. With your sensitivity and sympathy, And your power of understanding,You can breath life into me. I want you to know that. I want you to know how important you are to me.
How you can be a creatorof the person that is me, If you choose to. It will not be easy for you. A long conviction of worthlessness builds strong walls. The nearer you approach me, the blinder I may strike back; It's irrational, but despite what the books say about man, I'm irrational! I fight against the very thing that I cry out for, But I am told that love is stronger than strong walls, And in this lies my hope. My only hope.
Please try to beat down those walls with firm hands, But with gentle hands --for a childis very sensitive. Who am I, you may wonder? I'm someone you know very well. For I am every manor woman you meet. -by Charles C. Finn
We each are creating our 'mission statements', who we are, what we stand for, the core of our being.
Closing ceremony with one of the mission statments being shared. We will do that as each person is ready.
